thoughts.

summer was a thing that just happened. usually i didn’t count down to it; it just happened. whenecver it happened, i wouldn’t really do anything besides enjoy the days. i didn’t count the days- i barely knew the exact day.

this summer will be different. i don’t know if i’m excited for it or not. this is the summer i can get, i mean neeed, a job. i have behind the wheel classes so i can get my license, and i may be going to Columbia summer high school program. That means living downtown chicago from June 30th to August 1st.

I don’t want to be in school anymore, but i don’t know if i’m too excited for this summer either. i’m kind of nervous. i’m a shy person, i think. i wanted a relaxing summer: spending the night at pixie’s on weekdays, drinking and chiefing with chris and kalee, meeting a few nice people, maybe a dew concerts, and no need to wake up early in the morning.

already i know that will not happen. the bridge to lockport is closing next month, and the detour is very gas consuming. the trip does not take 10 minutes like before, either. i don’t exactly know it either. that is ensuring hanging out with chris and kalee will not happen as often as i’d like.

pixie is making more and more new friends that are not like me at all. they’re energetic, wild, and very outgoing. they sing and dance to the spice girls and go to clubs. we’ve been hanging out less and less… i don’t think i’ve seen her since… before spring break. waaay before spring break. maybe before easter. i don’t really know what’s going on in her life anymore. oh well i guess.

and i do have to get up early. my classes will start at 9 and end at 4. at least they’re classes i want to be in…

my golden birthday is this year too, but i don’t think i’m gonna do anything for it. what is there to do? a party? i wouldn’t have enough people to invite and it would just be akward and too expensive. i don’t wnat to cost my parents too much.

i guess i’ll see what happens soon.