thoughts.


Buddha?
May 31, 2008, 8:14 pm
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She’s coming home!



unpredicted summer vacation.
May 31, 2008, 8:01 pm
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It looks like my new summer friends are Maury and Steve Wilkos. I spend my summer vacation mornings with them. Sometimes I go to the hospital and get stethescopes. My afternoons consist of preparing food for my sisters. I end my night with my littlest sister sleeping in my bed.

I had forgotten about the flies that always get in the house during the summer. The ones that you hear always when you’re laying in bed, unsure if you should try and sleep or try to find something to go again, only to reach the kitchen and get some piece of food you really didn’t want.

With my mom in the hospital, I am at my house more than before. And it’s scary- I feel like my mom!

No one listens to her, why would they to me? My younger sisters sometimes do, but the bitchy 13 year old can go to hell. She’s useless. Unless the ability to lounge around and think about herself is some soft of talent the world needs.

Yeah, there is always a bright side to things. I just don’t feel they’re that bright though. I mean now I have an excuse not to work-out of the house. And I get to… spend time with my sisters? I can… erm, save money.

 

If only…



sometimes i dream…
May 2, 2008, 3:04 am
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Sometimes I dream I’m a millionaire
With jewels, champagne, and things to share
A very big apartment that belongs to me
And a nice and sporty car to drive in the city

What color do you have?
“Red and Blue.”
Can this take me down that way?
“Up to you.”
Does this car drive fast?
“Yes, sir, it’s the fastest we’ve got.”

Sometimes I dream I’m a true lover
One look in the eye and then drinks up, you sir
Each and every chick falling at my heel
The can of guys bein’ civil then come in sick

“There you go, have a drink.”
“It’s okay.”
Come to my bedroom we’ll have a lay
“I have a boyfriend.”
So what about a blowjob?
“It doesn’t sound like a problem..”

Sometimes I dream I’m a ballet dancer
That kind of dancer you would remember
I’ll do pirouettes, and I adage
Training by a madman who’ll be totally gay

Sir, my back hurts
“Force your legs”
Can I have this ice cream with peanuts?
“Certainly not!”
Will I be the prima ballerina?
“Not with that fat body of yours!”

Sometimes I dream I work at the video store
With my feet on the counter;
watching porn
I hope my boss doesn’t walk through the door
My eyes are full of bad
and my mouth full of popcorn.

Oh no! Here he comes..
“What’s going on in here?”
I thought that video was about a snake!
“I’ve been paying you for this!?”
You can’t fire me, I quit!
“You can’t quit, you’re FIRED!!”

Sometimes I dream I’m a fisherman
who captures a white whale, so it will become my friend
We’ll sail out together
and we’ll never part
So wild is my pet so I will name it Bart

Let’s go and free Willy
“Okay, dude!”
Invite some jellyfish and have a party
“That sounds good”
How does it feel to have a blowhole?
“Feels like I’m a pretty strange animal!”

Sometimes I dream I sell fireworks
to thousands of patriotic jerks
And as they drive away
I have to smirk
Because I sold them crap that doesn’t work.

“Hey guys, are you psyched for the 4th of July?”
(Cheering in agreement)
“God bless America, right?”
“USA! USA!”
Have fun at your party
(sound of a lighter) “Aw..”
Suckers.



summer
April 23, 2008, 6:03 pm
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summer was a thing that just happened. usually i didn’t count down to it; it just happened. whenecver it happened, i wouldn’t really do anything besides enjoy the days. i didn’t count the days- i barely knew the exact day.

this summer will be different. i don’t know if i’m excited for it or not. this is the summer i can get, i mean neeed, a job. i have behind the wheel classes so i can get my license, and i may be going to Columbia summer high school program. That means living downtown chicago from June 30th to August 1st.

I don’t want to be in school anymore, but i don’t know if i’m too excited for this summer either. i’m kind of nervous. i’m a shy person, i think. i wanted a relaxing summer: spending the night at pixie’s on weekdays, drinking and chiefing with chris and kalee, meeting a few nice people, maybe a dew concerts, and no need to wake up early in the morning.

already i know that will not happen. the bridge to lockport is closing next month, and the detour is very gas consuming. the trip does not take 10 minutes like before, either. i don’t exactly know it either. that is ensuring hanging out with chris and kalee will not happen as often as i’d like.

pixie is making more and more new friends that are not like me at all. they’re energetic, wild, and very outgoing. they sing and dance to the spice girls and go to clubs. we’ve been hanging out less and less… i don’t think i’ve seen her since… before spring break. waaay before spring break. maybe before easter. i don’t really know what’s going on in her life anymore. oh well i guess.

and i do have to get up early. my classes will start at 9 and end at 4. at least they’re classes i want to be in…

my golden birthday is this year too, but i don’t think i’m gonna do anything for it. what is there to do? a party? i wouldn’t have enough people to invite and it would just be akward and too expensive. i don’t wnat to cost my parents too much.

i guess i’ll see what happens soon.



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April 14, 2008, 11:13 pm
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